don’t wear it, if it doesn’t fit

Have you ever found a blouse or shoes that you fell in love with, but were disappointed because they didn’t have your size?  I hate it when I can’t find my size in clothes or shoes that I really like!  I’m not much of a shopping junkie so if & when I find something that I really like, its an even greater disappointment when I can’t find my size.   Sometimes, I’ve bought the item in the wrong size, thinking that I could fix it somehow to fit properly.  It never works out when I get the wrong size, no matter how hard I try. 

This is true for us with God & who He has made us to be.  At various times in our lives, we wish that we were different than who we are.  Sometimes, I wish I was more like my mom.  Sometimes, I wish I was more like other people whom I respect.  But when I have tried to be someone other than who God has made me to be, its like trying to wear clothes that don’t fit.  Life gets uncomfortable.  This is kind of like when David was preparing to fight Goliath & he put on Saul’s armor – it didn’t fit & was uncomfortable. Maybe this armor would have gotten in his way with his sling – we don’t know.  But this much is true, when we try to be someone other than who God has made us to be, then we’ll never successfully achieve God’s destiny and purpose for our lives.  I’m supposed to be Sarah and not Marilyn.  You’re supposed to be you and not someone else.  The only person we’re supposed to imitate is Jesus.  Make the decision to wear what fits & to grow in grace through the work of the Holy Spirit.  🙂

old shoes

I have these shoes that I really like – they’re beyond old.  I’ve worn them for more than 20 years & I could easily wear them another 20 years, especially if I don’t think about style (which is already a pretty sketchy topic for me).  These shoes are leather with a CRAZY durable sole & I often wear them without socks – so their perfectly molded to my feet.  I always throw them on as my old stand-by’s because I know they will be comfortable, sturdy & reliable. 

I’m using the shoe topic to help me talk about what I think it means to have a deeply satisfying relationship w God.  You see, in my mind, I want my life to be like a pair of shoes that God wears & uses everyday.  I want my life to be His faithful stand-by, that He will pick everyday to wear.  While I may not be very ornate or sparkly, I want to conform to His preferences, let Him walk wherever He choses & be trustworthy and reliable for His usage.  I fully believe that a person can be sparkly & ornate and be mightily used by God, so please don’t take me the wrong way.  For me personally, I want to conform perfectly to His ways, His feet, His steps.  I want God to fill me with His presence not only for my benefit, but also to activate His will & for His pleasure.  I want to God to wear me in – that I’m not too small, or uncomfortable for Him to use.  I don’t want for God to only use me on special occassions & I don’t want to give Him blisters when He choses to use (wear) me.  I want to be His “old shoes.”