I’m not alone with feeling that I’m not enough. You & I both have our weak spots for feeling or thinking that we’re inadequate, be that smart enough, cool enough, pretty enough, social enough, rich enough, humble enough, strong enough, etc.
It’s very liberating to embrace the truth that we are NEVER enough, by ourselves. I’ve been in innumerable situations where it was more than obvious that I wasn’t adequate, not enough & in way over my head. In these occasions, it always helps me to remember that I have continuous access to more than abundant & adequate supply – the Holy Spirit, my Heavenly Help!
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There are lots of occasions when I feel inadequate & when situations demand more than I have: more wisdom, solutions, answers, stamina, vision, etc. I say this as I wait to catch a 6:30a flight this morning to participate in an important meeting. As I look at this day, I see that it will require more of me than what I feel that I have. In & of myself, there’s not enough of me to meet the expectations of this day.
And that’s a good thing.
This is good because the abundance of these needs force me to rely on the Holy Spirit rather than depending on myself. Because I’ve been an independent person, such reliance isn’t always comfortable to me but I’m learning that God’s abundance is far superior to my deficiencies.
To experience God’s abundance, let’s decide to rely on the Holy Spirit rather than our individual resources.
i recently had a fun conversation w 1 of my friends who has recently had her 3rd child. she was lamenting the fact that it always seemed like she was behind, late, sleepy, etc. We were laughing because even before i had children, i was often late, running behind & felt like i was always trying to catch up. Now that i have children, well, let’s just say that i’m occassionally on time & frequently feel like there’s not enough of me & in some ways, i’m ok with that. Maybe you think that i shouldn’t be ok with that & that i should consider managing my time, energy, resources better to avoid these feelings. Seems reasonable to me.
However, if i live life within my margins, it seems to me that i’ll always be limited by my margins. I’m ok with running out of myself & having to rely on God (being irresponsible doesn’t fall into this category). I’m ok with God organizing my time for His purposes, while challenging me to keep my feet fully planted in daily living & its demands. On some days, I’m ok w feeling inadequate as i learn to trust & rely on God more. Somewhere, there needs to be some grace between “should” & “is”.