You are magnificent when you are you!! When you try to blend, conform or be someone else, not so much. I say this because I’ve brought my daughter for a college visit & I remember my insecurities in college & being uncomfortable in my skin. I’ve always been a little quirky & when I’m settled with myself, that’s fun. When I’m unsettled with myself, the quirky and fun side of me gets quiet and even disappears.
All of us have insecurities and internal struggles. At the same time, let’s rest in the truth that we are fearfully and wonderfully made, in the image of our Heavenly Father. We are valuable, important and have divine purposes and plans. Indeed, in Ephesians 2:10, it says that God has already laid out good works for us to walk in and no one can do these good works, except you because they are divinely appointed for you, living in your skin and being wonderful YOU!!!
Sometimes my thoughts are poisonous. For example, I’m currently writing a book & from time to time I think that what I’m writing is a garbled mess & worthless. There are times when I get in a group of people & I get frozen with insecurity. Occasionally, fear creeps around my thoughts leaving little whispers of doubt.
All of these things are poison. If I let these thoughts run lose in my mind, I turn into a shriveled little person, ineffective & irrelevant.
I would speculate that you might have your own versions of poisonous thoughts so let’s help each other out & agree to pass on the poison. How can we do this? Here are a few suggestions:
Take captive every thought that exalts itself against the knowledge of God – refuse to let these poisonous thoughts run amuck in your mind
Replace the poison with probiotic verses – Gods word is alive & effective so let’s allow it to firmly root & flourish in our thoughts!
Take a walk – sometimes it helps to clear the cobwebs when we get some physical exercise.
No matter what, let’s actively choose to pass on the poison!
I’m noticing today that my intimacy with God hasn’t been as deep in the last few weeks & of course I want this to change. So I’m thinking back about what’s been going on in my life that could be contributing to this malaise. I certainly acknowledge that there’s the normal ebb & flow that happens in any relationship. In my walk with God, however, I want to pay attention really well so I don’t settle for shallow when I can have deep, intimate & flourishing. The recent things in my life that I’m observing include some of the ongoing challenges with the concussion recovery – sleep challenges, energy & focus struggles. I’ve also noticed that there have been some insecurity flare ups that have definitely sidetracked me some. There’s also the challenges of schedule changes with my kids being out of school.
None of these things can break my relationship with God, but they can certainly distract my focus & reliance so that I don’t live in the deeps with God. So I’m leaning into God & asking for more Heavenly Help. I’m also endeavoring to listen & pay attention better. I’m also keen to be less independent & more reliant on the Holy Spirit. Anyone want to join me?
Recently I had a snowboarding accident, landed on my head and got a concussion, despite wearing a helmet. Clearly, this is not a pleasant experience and the recovery feels slow, to this fairly impatient person 🙂
Writing with a concussion is an interesting experience. I find that my thinking is slower than normal and sometimes it feels like my writing is murky. So here’s my solution: Heavenly Help 🙂
Truth be known, in some ways this concussion experience has helped me lean into the Holy Spirit like I’ve never done before and the results are super encouraging! For example, last night, I attended a school function with one of my kids where I’d normally be super insecure and awkward. Instead, last night I felt lots of strength and confidence from the Holy Spirit and left the event not only relieved but also very pleased and secure in the Holy Spirit’s very practical help and strength. This whole concussion thing can really help me grow deeper in my relationship with the Helper and that, my friends, is the best thing in the world!
“How come all these awful things have happened?” Ever ask God this kind of a question? I think probably everyone alive has asked God some variation of this question & the Bible shows people asking God the same stuff.
I’m reading about Gideon & I seriously appreciate his honesty with the angel at the beginning of their conversation: If God is with us, how come all this stuff has happened to us? This was in reply the the angel’s salutation, “The Lord is with you, valiant warrior”
Gideon’s initial behavior & words didn’t really confirm that he was a valiant warrior & if we are honest, there are lots of times when our behavior & words don’t express that we are valiant. Nevertheless, God knows our substance & potential so God speaks to our true self rather than the smokescreen insecurities we wear. Not only does God call us by our true identity but God also helps us know who He is, as Gideon acknowledges when he experiences God as the Lord our peace in Judges 6:23-24.
So let’s make it a premium value to be honest with God so that we can honestly know God 🙂
From time to time I get in situations where I don’t feel very cool – maybe I’m in a group of people who are smarter than me or more trendy or maybe I’m just a newcomer among a group of old friends. For whatever reason we can all feel uncool from time to time & the key word here is “feel”. The reason I say this is because God always knows that you’re cool regardless of how you feel. You are very significant & important in God’s so this makes you always cool!
I was talking with a friend the other day & she was explaining that there was a long season in her life of tremendous insecurity because she felt inadequate & incompetent. When we were talking, my ears perked up because there are alot of times when I feel incompetent & inadequate. I get these feelings when I’m around people who are really good at various things – be that computer stuff, athletic stuff, makeup & hair stuff, Bible stuff, details & scheduling, yada, yada, yada – when I get in the inadequate mindset, the list becomes interminable & insecurity becomes entrenched in my worldview. From this point, everything just goes downhill & that’s why my ears really perked up when my friend & I were discussing this topic.
When I asked her how she dealt with this struggle, she gave me this absolutely fantastic verse in 2 Cor 3:5 – Not that we are adequate in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but (A)our adequacy is from God. She explained that she has come to the reality that she is incompetent & inadequate. Furthermore, despite all of her hard work & best efforts, she has concluded that its never enough. She said that when she realized this, there was tremendous liberty because she could lean back & rest in God’s ability & adequacy – that God works through us His ability & results for impossible situations. Truly, we are incompetent and this is the starting point in our lives for God to work into our daily living. With this in mind, I can celebrate my inability & weakness because these shortcomings provide the space for God to be Himself to me 🙂