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I’ve noticed that I’m not blogging as much as before I left for Ethiopia & I’ve been thinking about this.  Truth be known, I think I have been really rocked by this trip in lots of ways & I still find myself being unraveled from this trip, from time to time.  I find myself processing things a little differently, but I’m also finding myself really hungry for Jesus – more than hungry. I’m finding myself to be very needy – I need Jesus & this trip has done many things, the most blatant to me is exposing my desperation for Jesus in a daily context.  THis trip also showed me some areas where I’ve limited God & offended Him w my arrogance. 

I want this turning to Jesus to become a bend in my heart (bend, inclination, habit, predisposition, proclivity . . . . pick your word), cultivated into a lifestyle of craving Him.  I need Jesus more than I want Him and more than I like Him.