light & dark

Can i just say that i’m completely amazed by God & here are some reasons i am continually discovering that increase the amazement factor:

  • God knows me really well – He totally gets how i think, even better than me
  • provision – God gives me what i need, when i need it (often not earlier);  either He provides the actual resources or the wisdom to match the need.  Astounding
  • Trinity – there’s enough w just this one word to keep my brain fully engaged until i die & better than that, enough of the Trinity to sustain, fuel & even overwhelm my heart, brokenness & inadequacy
  • darkness cannot hide from light, no matter how hard it tries

matchAnother reason i’m amazed w God is from what Jesus tells us in Matt 6:22-23: our eye is the lamp of our body & if our eye is clear, then we will be filled w light.  If our eye is bad, then our body is full of darkness & that’s ALOT of darkness.  So let’s consider some things we may use as “light” to illuminate our daily living (read through all of these to get the gist):

  • if your light is food, then possibly fasting is darkness
  • if your light is sex, then abstinence is darkness
  • if your light is wealth, then poverty is your darkness
  • if your light is education, then ignorance is your darkness
  • if your light is relationships, then alone is your darkness
  • if your light is your self, then maybe an empty heart is your darkness

While this list isn’t comprehensive & none of these things are bad by themselves, they become darkness for us, if we allow them to be a core value or motivation in our daily living.  Let’s be sure that Jesus, the Light of the world, is THE Light who illuminates the entirety of our lives for each day.

understated

iguanasi called a friend a few days ago to talk w her about what God had been speaking w me about in my morning prayer time.  i was so thoroughly rocked that i started crying as i talked w her & if you know me at all, crying isn’t part of the normal operating routine.  crying was an outward expression of total amazement at the sense of God’s presence w me in the car at that time, as i tried to share the amazing things God was speaking w me about.  these last few days have been extremely powerful for me on a deeply personal level.  i’m sensing God dealing w me about things that have been difficult for me for a very long time . . . & i feel God walking and talking w me deeply, clearly and with healing. 

This kind of reminds me of an experience i had w God when i was 14 at a summer church camp – i came home w such an intense awareness of God that i sensed Him throughout my entire summer before high school.  My experience over the last few days has been similar & even now as i write, i feel His presence.  i pray that your needs, questions, unknowns, etc serve as paths to a greater interface w God in your daily living, in an ongoing way. 

i’m eager to watch God over the next few weeks, as I begin a series on Wed nights related to fasting & Jesus’ words on fasting in the Sermon on the Mount – come if you can, but at least check out the blogs & feedback from a few days ago about the experience of fasting from lots of different people (their insights, suggestions, frustrations, experiences, etc). 

i’m amazed by God