Abandoned

When I was in my early 20s, I went through an experience that made me think that God had abandoned me. The short-term result was a deeply personal search for truth that I could own. The long-term result was a certainty in my faith in God that’s now virtually unshakable. But the beginning of that journey started w the sense of being abandoned by God.
Have you felt a time(s) when it seemed like God abandoned you? If you’ve come out of that struggle, do you still believe today that God abandoned you??? If you don’t believe that He abandoned you, what changed???
I’d seriously like your feedback as I’m doing some exploring w God on this topic. Pls leave a comment 🙂

babies without parents

I’ve been around lots of babies between last night & today.  Last night, I got to hang out a little bit w Pastor Jill & baby Drew (i had the honor of attempting to help coach P. Jill during her delivery).  Baby Drew is 11 wks old & thoroughly captivating – she’s smiley, has deep eyes that lock onto your eyes to look deep into your soul (how an 11 wk old does this, escapes me, but i’ll never forget this from last night), bright & FUN!!  Today, I was part of an intro cooking class for Isabell & many of the moms who came had really wonderful babies.  There’s something very soothing about being around new people in small bodies.  They’re fresh, trusting and totally cozy in their skin. 

This is a VERY different experience than i had 2 wks ago in Ethiopia, when i had the privilege of connecting w a 1 year old boy & girl who had been abandoned by their parents.  Their eyes were empty, they were restless, stressed & anxious – even though they were in a safe place w good care. 

These contrasting experiences leave me pondering the effects such vast differences make on these children and what being an adult looks like for parented babies versus non-parented babies.  Just thinking