raw

I’ve noticed that I’m not blogging as much as before I left for Ethiopia & I’ve been thinking about this.  Truth be known, I think I have been really rocked by this trip in lots of ways & I still find myself being unraveled from this trip, from time to time.  I find myself processing things a little differently, but I’m also finding myself really hungry for Jesus – more than hungry. I’m finding myself to be very needy – I need Jesus & this trip has done many things, the most blatant to me is exposing my desperation for Jesus in a daily context.  THis trip also showed me some areas where I’ve limited God & offended Him w my arrogance. 

I want this turning to Jesus to become a bend in my heart (bend, inclination, habit, predisposition, proclivity . . . . pick your word), cultivated into a lifestyle of craving Him.  I need Jesus more than I want Him and more than I like Him.

2 thoughts on “raw

  1. i can relate to you on this…i havent been able to do the things that i have been “needing” to do, i quote needing cause they arent very important, but to me they seemed so important before, and now all i can seem to is think about how Jesus is calling me somewhere that im afraid to follow because of arrogance.
    PS ive tried to blogroll you several times, but it wont let me…

  2. this year has been a complete stripping away of what’s been comfortable to me. i feel very raw, but i feel God at the center of it. molding me, shaping me, transforming me. it makes me completely vulnerable to Him and no matter how hard that feels, i know there’s no better place to be. i know that it’s forcing me to be absolutely and utterly dependent on Jesus.

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